Yet I can only say
this love for you will never decay
I love you every single day
and in every single way
And it pains me to see you fading away

i'm waiting for your hypnotizing spell~

yay, finally a new post.
and i have no idea what to write.

so school is starting soon and i didn't want school to start.
but wait up, chinese new year is coming.
i'm all excited about it.
actually, there is nothing much to cny apart from the goodies.

okay, end of post.
oh, happy new year to all. ^^

Had 天灯 today. Actually I haven't even thought about making a wish. I mean I never think about what I wished I had. Because I'm satisfied with my life now. So what else can I wish for. Haha! Wished everyone happiness. I wrote that. Because I think everyone had different definitions to happiness so I guess that's the best wish. If everyone can get what they wished for, isn't that that lantern is for. But I'm glad I hadn't wrote any wish because I am happy with who I am - the good, bad and ugly. Actually, I kinda had the worst day in Taiwan so far. Gastric problem worked up in Taiwan was the last thing I ever wanted. And of course I broke the promise to myself to endure him no matter what. But I couldn't do it. It is so frustrating to have to break a promise to myself. But whatever. Ending here.

Yay! Happy to find a way to not having to talk to anyone else and still get to get this out of my system. But can this replace friends or family? I wished I could talk to them now because I needed it.

I know I have not been taking time out to maintain this blog, despite the promise to do so. 
I have always wanted to really sit down and reflect about things that had been going on in my life. 
And I wished that this blog will serve its function of recording parts and pieces of my life - be it happiness or sadness.

So now exams are almost over. 
I woke up feeling so empty. 
Not knowing what to do, I decided to write about something.

 And the first thing I'm going to talk about would be: 
I AM GOING TO TAIWAN SOON! 
I have been hoping to go overseas since a long time ago. 
I have this feeling that I am trapped in this little sunny island. 
Like I couldn't breathe. 
The stress from school, and the strain from work sometimes make me feel all suffocated. 
But, even with all of this, I'm loving my life. 
Especially when you get to laugh, sing and go all crazy with friends and family. 
So going back to the topic... (I know I always drift from topic) 
It's my first time traveling overseas ever since the trip to Korea when I was in primary four. 
(How long was that man?! About 10 years ago?) 
I'm all so excited about the trip. 
The food of Shihlin night market, the clothes of their shopping centers.. 
I think I'm going to rape all of that! 
So Taiwan, wait for me! Here I come!

So school has been hectic - infinite number of readings that I couldn't finish and of course, projects and assignments. 
And this is definitely the first semester that I have failed my tests. 
I was so scared that I wouldn't be able to major in psychology or even graduate. 
I have really no idea what I want to major in if I were not to be able to major in psy. 
All along, it has been my dream, my aspiration to be able to study psychology. 
And now, I don't know.
I feel lost.

Okay, stopping here.
Ciao.

As the title suggests, my sister is coming back the day after tomorrow!
Yay, finally. I miss her a lot.
I can't believe one month have passed so quickly.

It's time to study hard.

Happy birthday to Mee!
Sisters forever.
♥

Friday - 16/09

Last friday, I attended the exchange with Aoyama Gakuin University.
It was a great experience and time spent with them.
Conversing in Japanese is not as simple as I thought,
but I have learnt alot from them.

The friendship we built in the two days cannot be blogged about in just a few words.
We had alot of fun together - eating, talking and playing.
And now, they have gone back to Japan, it suddenly feels so awkward or empty.

On a side note, I'm starting to get so used to speaking Japanese that I'm using all the expressions at home.

So here are some photos:

Part of the group. The others went in super early.
Especially the sensee, he went in immediately after checking in his luggage.


Group photo with NUS students who went for the send-off.


Met them on Sunday and brought them to look at AKB48 store at *scape. But they actually dont like AKB48. HAHA! If you are wondering what they were doing --> Oh so the two guys wanted to do 'AKB48', but we three girls didn't get their message. So in the end, it turns out like this. HAHA!


Before they left for Japan on the same day, we brought them to Bugis hawker centre to eat because they have never been to a hawker centre before during their stay here.


Took neoprints with them. And the neoprints look really weird because our eyes are too big.




With Tetsuro. :)


With Takao. :)


日本へ行きたい！
I'm already missing you...

Thank you sissy for sending me a surprise birthday gift!

Love you lots!

So as requested by my sister, this is the photo of the clothes she bought me.


and the card she drew. Almost cried when I read the card.

 
and finally, a little update on my brother.
I have not posted any pictures of him here yet, have I?
So here it is!

So that's all.
Time to study. Boo!

Happy birthday to my sister!

There are times I wish I was still a kid. And now is one of those times.

If I were a kid, I would never have to think too far;
I would not need to deal with so many problems;
I would never know how much it hurts to have my heart broken.

I would really wish I could be of support to you, but when I realise I couldn't do anything, even providing that emotional support, I felt so helpless.
I wouldn't dare to show my deepest emotions, because I don't know if I can deal with this.
But I really want you to know I care.

I hate myself for feeling this way, feeling so useless, for running away from reality.
But I do not have the courage to face this right now and perhaps anytime in the near future.

At times like this, I really hoped someone could hug me tight and tell me everything will be alright.